Needed to write something...
It's been a Month now since my Mother's loss to Cancer...
First holiday without my Mother...
It was hard...
Few people know what my family and myself went through and other people don't... Everyone asks me how I'm doing... I have a smile on my face and say everything's good...
I'm lying...
With the string of bad luck I've been having lately...
I say to myself...
" I've lost my Mother and there is nothing that can hurt me more than that... "
My Mother Loved Me and I Loved My Mother and that's all that counts...
The First 3 days after my Mother's Death I cried almost non-stop and since then I've stopped crying...
My Mother did not want us to cry... I so want to cry and let it out... This is torture...
Mom I lit incense for you in the country on the weekend but I wished that I was at your grave to do it...
I know...
Everything is going to be ok...
But right now I don't have the Courage or the Strength but I'll do it for you Mom...
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I'm Crying now...
All is Good...
Perhaps not a good idea to read this at work--I had to go the ladies washroom to dry my tears.
I can't help but to relate to every word you have written--because that is exactly what I did.
Camelot. My goodness. Simply said in a word. I transplanted my mom's peonies to my sister's garden last year--it was pouring out and I got totally soaked but I didn't care. They were my mom's favorite flower and she too loved her garden.
I'm crying now too... but it's a good thing.
Sharon.
:)
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